On June 4, 2022, I celebrated the two year anniversary of being diagnosed with stage 4 melanoma. I was quickly reminded of how time simultaneously stands still and flies by and how God is present through it all.
Two years ago, I was heavy laden with fear and grief and couldn't see very far into the future. I wasn't sure I even had a future, honestly. I was so blinded by the light of my life flashing before my eyes that I couldn't see God's hand in my circumstances. I felt abandoned.
But abandoned I was not.
I had no idea how beautifully messy life was going to be from that day forward.
Little-by-little, glimpses of God began breaking through the heaviness of my circumstances. Much like the sky shining through a dead cornfield, the darkness accentuated His light. My life was no longer flashing before my eyes. I was seeing God through the tearing veil, instead.
My grief was turning to joy.
This brings us to today.
This morning at church I was reminded of how ever-present God is even when I cannot see Him.
In John 16, Jesus mysteriously explained how the disciples' grief would turn to joy after the Passover meal. In verse 16, Jesus said, “in a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me.”
While He was prophesying His death and resurrection at that time, His words spoke differently to me today.
Two years ago, I could see Him no more, but after a little while--I could see Him.
Today, I can see Him.
It is when we take our eyes off of Him and look to things of this world--our circumstances-- that we lose sight of Him.
It's so cool how God's Word remains a constant in our ever-changing circumstances, speaking truth and hope over them.
May we be reminded, today and everyday, that God is not coming and going in our lives. He is always present--continuously transforming us from glory to glory.
Love & Sunblock