This Thanksgiving I feel especially grateful because I've been experiencing much difficulty since completing the clinical trial.
My first post-trial scans showed overall stable disease, which means not enough shrinkage for a response, but also not enough growth for progression.
So I continue to wait in the inbetween with a 50/50 shot. It's a place I should be used to by now, but this go round has been especially hard.
As time passes and new treatments are needed to gain control over the cancer, I can't help but consider that my options are starting to run out.
Then, in moments of clarity, God's light is magnified within my circumstances.
I remember whose I am and that He's not given me a spirit of fear, but of power.
I remember that my scans may only show "overall stability," but I serve a God Over All.
I remember that cancer treatments are continuously evolving with increasing success.
I remember how blessed I am to still be alive with a 50/50 shot.
May we all remember this thanksgiving--and everyday-- that there's always something to be grateful for.
Love & Sunblock